Patience is a Virtue

Things looking up? I like to think so.. God has a funny way letting the sun shine in the middle of a storm. With all of the awful things that have been going on in my life the past few months this week has been the first light of hope in a long time. I met the two families I will be working for this week and I LOVE both of them. The Vaughn family is hilarious, are all extremely smart and although slightly awkward are very funny in the "I am way smarter than you but can still have a sense of humor" way. (their neighbor is coach Nick Saban which is CRAZY!) The other family, the Cooper's, are very down to earth and have the ideal picture of what I would love to have one day. Jenna and Rob are so in love and even though they have been married for years just the way they looked at each other was adorable and their kids are angels- I am so excited to work for them. I am so blessed to be working for both families and will be working a 45-50 hour weeks this summer and will hopefully make enough to pay off my rent for the next year which would take a major weight off my shoulders. God is so good! It seems that lately God has been putting this verse on my heart: She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. Proverbs 31:25 Even though the sun has been coming through there are still some things that have me worried and I can't seem to shake. I feel foolish whining about things like why I can't seem to keep a good guy or why all of my friends seem to be making such great things of their lives and settling down and I feel as if I am still just as lost as I was the day I graduated high school. Why can't God make things happen the way I always dreamed they would happen? Why do I let other girls get to me and make me feel like I am not worthy or good enough?? Oh where did my confidence go? Where did the happy-go-lucky girl I used to be go? Where did the girl who could love freely and never worry it was being wasted? Well I am learning new virtues now....Patience is one thing that I feel God is throwing at me to work on and the more I feel like he wants me to work on it the less I feel like I have. I wish to be a Proverbs 31 woman one day with all my heart. One day be a wife and mother of such greatness that my great-grandchildren will talk of me... Well enough of my whining... I feel better now!